I fell in love with this song. It is so deep and so true.Found this when i was watching Co-MiyaviWorldWide's latest fanvid to Miyavi. I sure do hope that lucky man smiles when he sees that vid. I was in it too.. cept I put my lil cousins' pictures in it. :3 any ways, here's the song

Rize-Heiwa





Kanji lyrics

Everyday life man, it's a 実体験
生きてるだけで こんなに未体験
感じれるのも 俺ら生きてるから
ただそれだけだけど中には
涙で錆びたハートが
今日も何処かで 泣いてるパートナー
俺に何出来る? 歌詞書ける
この時代の為に もしかして変えれる

(礼) お子さん亡くした ママ (夫婦) 達
親戚そしてあなたに 聞こえてますか あなた?
心に届くまで俺叫ぶから 毎年毎年
増えてるみたいで こんな光景続けたくはないね
後何年? そして何年 待てば変わるかな?

ヘイワって言葉が何か 懐かしく聞こえねぇか?
ヘイワって言葉が何か so far away
ヘイワって言葉を何故か 近づけたくて
天まで届けばいいな 一人でも多くの声が

Dear my いずれの子供 こんな親父をどう思う?
好きになってくれるかな? 俺の脳を襲う
愛すると決めたなら 俺は愛すし
お前が泣くとき俺笑うし 疑われたらお前を庇う身
それが親父って物を確信 親から子へ渡されるタスキ

It ain't easy to hold a family,
it ain't easy to be a daddy or
It ain't easy to be a mommy,
it ain't money LOVE for family

金が無いから子が産めない 金が無いと愛も生めない
ってそんな言い訳聞きたく無い
愛が無いなら仕様がない…

でも産まれてきても 仕様もない
そんな世界に 生まれて欲しくない
形はどうでも良いから 愛したい 早く逢いたい

ヘイワって言葉が何か 懐かしく聞こえねぇか?
ヘイワって言葉が何か so far away
へイワって言葉を何故か 近づけたくて 天まで届けばいいな
ヘイワって言葉が何か 懐かしく聞こえねぇか?
ヘイワって言葉が何か so far away
へイワって言葉を何故か 近づけたくて
天まで届けばいいな 一人でも多くの声が

(平和… your so beautiful)




romaji lyrics

Everyday life man, it's a jittaiken
ikiteru dake de konna ni mi taiken
kanjireru no mo orera ikiteru kara
tada sore dake da kedo naka ni wa
namida de sabita haato ga
kyou mo doko ka de naiteru paatonaa
ore ni nani dekiru? kashi kakeru
kono jidai no tame ni moshikashite kaereru

okosan nakushita mama tachi
shinseki soshite anata ni kikoetemasu ka anata?
kokoro ni todoku made ore sakebu kara mai nen mai nen
fueteru mitai de konna koukei tsuzuketaku wa nai ne
ato nen nen? soshite nan nen mateba kawaru ka na?

heiwa tte kotoba ga nani ka natsukashiku kikoenee ka?
heiwa tte kotoba ga nani ka so far away
heiwa tte kotoba wo naze ka chikazuketakute
ten made todokeba ii na hitori demo ooku no koe ga

Dear my izure no kodomo konna oyaji wo dou omou?
suki ni natte kureru ka na? ore no nou wo osou
ai suru to kimeta nara ore wa ai su shi
omae ga naku toki ore warau shi utagawaretara omae wo kabau mi
sore ga oyaji tte mono wo kakushin oya kara ko e watasareru tasuki

It ain't easy to hold a family,
it ain't easy to be a daddy or
It ain't easy to be a mommy,
it ain't money LOVE for family

kane ga nai kara ko ga umenai kane ga nai to ai mo umenai
tte sonna iiwake kikitakunai
ai ga nai nara shou ga nai...

demo umarete kite mo shou mo nai
sonna sekai ni umarete hoshikunai
katachi wa dou demo ii kara ai shitai hayaku aitai

heiwa tte kotoba ga nani ka natsukashiku kikoenee ka?
heiwa tte kotoba ga nani ka so far away
heiwa tte kotoba wo naze ka chikazuketakute ten made todokeba ii na
heiwa tte kotoba ga nani ka natsukashiku kikoenee ka?
heiwa tte kotoba ga nani ka so far away
heiwa tte kotoba wo naze ka chikazuketakute
ten made todokeba ii na hitori demo ooku no koe ga

(heiwa...your so beautiful)


Translated

Everyday life man, it's a real-life experience
It's a personal experience that I've not yet had by just living my life
We can feel that way, because we're alive
Though throughout it all, we feel like that's all there is
A heart that's rusted from tears
Is somewhere crying for its partner today too
What can I do? I can write some lyrics
And maybe I can change things, for the sake of this generation

The moms who have lost their kids
Relatives, and did they catch your ears? Can you hear them?
I'm going to scream out, until it reaches your heart; every year, every year
It's like it increases, I don't want these kinds of scenes to continue on
How many more years? And how many years do I have to wait for things to change?

Doesn't something about the word "peace" sound nostalgic?
Something about the word "peace" is so far away
For some reason, I want the word "peace" to be closeby
If only my voice, lone but big, could reach to the sky

Dear my children everywhere, what do you think about fathers like this?
Could you grow to love them? It attacks my brain
If you decide to love, then I'll love
When you cry, I smile, and when you're suspected, I protect you
I'm convinced that that's what a father is, a cord that's passed down from parents to children

It ain't easy to hold a family,
it ain't easy to be a daddy or
It ain't easy to be a mommy,
it ain't money LOVE for family

You can't have a child because you've got no money; when you've got no money, you can't have love
I don't want to hear excuses like that
If there's no love, then there's no helping it...

But even though we give birth, it can't be helped
I wouldn't want to be born into a world like this
Shape and size doesn't matter, I want to love you, I want to see you

Doesn't something about the word "peace" sound nostalgic?
Something about the word "peace" is so far away
For some reason, I want the word "peace" to be closeby, if only it could reach to the sky
Doesn't something about the word "peace" sound nostalgic?
Something about the word "peace" is so far away
For some reason, I want the word "peace" to be closeby
If only my voice, lone but big, could reach to the sky

(Peace...you're so beautiful)

seriously, look at yourself.

boy number 1#

who are you to called me desperate?

Remember back then when we were still together?
Oh, yes. That time I was desperate. Desperate to have your effing attention. Desperate for your love. Because I effing care about your sensitive heart and your sensitive mind.

Pfft, and you backed out because I was different. Well, guess what? I am and will always be different. It's because I have a life. Not like yours, still hiding behind her shadow expecting her to turn around and acknowledge you.

boy number 2#

Stop acting stupid and no I'm not joking. It's not April Fool and I can guess from your tone. You're just damn to surprise to had it drill down into you brain of who I am now.

boy number 3#

say what you need to say. Don't effing think that I don't know what you had in your head. If it bothers you, please do state it and get over it. the sooner the better and stop fucking playing nice with me. Just because I have weird friends doesn't mean you can jump on them by sudden and ask for sex. Fucker. Get your horny hormones and your shrink dick into a tree. People like you shouldn't exist.

boy number 4#

I know you're upset. but don't judge me just because of this issue. Grow the effing up! You're still my best friend! Open up to me damn it!



Like I've said. You all had your chances. I've been hinting all of you and been showing how much i do really really really care. But did you take the time to appreciate it? I think not.

so please, stop accusing me like it's my fault for loving someone i do really care. I love her. Full stop.

orz.. hahahah.. I'm such a hopeless romantic at times.

Orz.. wait.. being romantic isn't my thing too lol. +sweat+

Sorry for being so hush tonight, guess the emotions from last night finally sinks in deep. [+hides under blanket+ (hahaha i'm so effing shy nao)]

Being able to know you're being your crazy self is enough to make me happy.

And this entry is so uhmm idk what to say.. And I can't believe I'm writing this entry. ^///^

Officially belongs to you.

I'm so happy I told you. <3

<3

<3

Oh..

You won't like it when I'm being mean.

I'm sure you'll hate it.

So much of drama.

So much of trauma.

Do not judge me for how I am now.

And I won't stop.

Won't stop hunting you down.

Won't stop hunting till my hate goes away.

Even if it takes to make me to make you to kill yourself.

What would it take,

for things to be quiet...?
Quiet, like the snow...

And I know this isn't much but,
I know,
I could. I could be better.

I don't think I deserve it;
Selflessness,
Find your way into my heart.

All stars could be brighter,
All hearts could be warmer.

What would it take,
for things to be quiet...?
Quiet, like the snow.

Are we meant to be empty handed?
I know,
I could. I could be better.

I don't think I deserve it;
Selflessness,
Find your way into my arms.
All stars could be brighter.
All hearts could be warmer.

What would it take...

for things to be quiet......?

so.......

life had been such a trilling yet tiring for me for the past few weeks.

I'm almost done with my finals but the end is still far away.. I'd be coming back home with loads of works for my final Diploma show for next year. It sucks but I'm striving to be among the best.

Worry not, I will still be cosplaying before going on hiatus for half a year January. I will give my all for those two months despite I'm struggling for my work. =D I miss you all so very fucking much.. felt like wanna snuggle up on each and every one of you 8D.

Updates besides work?

I'm going to trash up the house I'm currently renting. Probably might burn it down as well >D The owner is too fucked up, asking more money and making insensible excuses while threatening us to pay up full for this month. wtf old man??? 150 is enough for half a month.

Just because we are all girls doesn't mean we can't fight back hard old fart. Just see how much damage you've earned up for the past four months. Be sure that you have enough money to repair the place.

That aside, my friends and I are currently planning to teach a fucked up, big headed, so called cheap model, and a boastful student a big lesson of life. Well, we won't be coming down hard on her. We're just going to tamper around on one of her most possessed item and we'll see if she would find who would come to rescue her in the middle of the empty highway. Hell, we would very much be glad if she dies to. Really.. I have no regret if we accidentally murder her in the process. Life is like that. I can be cold-hearted bitch when I want to. she just deserve to die rather being alive and ruin others' life. Really, she had just messed around with the wrong people.

Oh, wait. I actually currently am a mean bitch with the people around me. I just love to see their smile drop as I stab them with my own words. I find myself shocked with the things I've said. Guess I've been too quiet for too long and i guess it got them thinking that I don't mind.

Fuck you.

I'm still human and despite being the quiet and resilient, doesn't mean I don't have a word to speak up. It's because that I'd prefer not to see and feel sadness or annoyance or those negative auras around me.. but I guess I guessed it wrong. My silence produced the opposite of my expectation. so, yeah... I'm coming out from my shell and literally showing who I really am.

It hurts... doesn't it?

When every single fucked up reasons you gave goes down the drain whenever I pop out my opinions on them? Really, it's fun to see how all of you turned silent when I fork out my sarcastic remarks, staring me with disbelief as I speak out. It is so much fun, I forget how to feel human. I forget what it is like to think of what you guys might think. I really do had forgotten what it is like to be quiet. The one who would shut up and listen to your pathetic love stories, your pathetic fucked up sex life, your pathetic family and your pathetic self. Oh did I remind you how fun it was to have my reasons to rub into your face and into your pathetic self? Poking fun at you fantasy generated stories?

You do know me.... The one who hate to say 'I told you so'. But.. I told you so... and life is like that fucker. It's full of shit and happy endings are non-existent. If you fail, you fail but doesn't mean you'll fail the rest of your life.

Get back up on your two feet, rub the shit off your face and move on. Don't look back, don't ever think whatever had happened in the past and reach out for whatever goal you have had in your mind. Don't fucking change your goal until your got them but never stop looking out for opportunities that are held out within reach. Stop fucking relying on me cuz it's not fucking fun and it is fucking annoying.



Sincerely from within the deepest darkest core of my cold heart,

Ike



P/S: I think I just heard myself talking to me, telling me that I need someone.. +swt+ I need to come back down to KL A.S.A.P