Apr 28, 2010
Exhausted, Tired
So, I had just finished my finals.... welll.... not really.. I had to submit another 5 pictures to get extra marks from there...

= 3= what a bugger.. but mweehhhhh..... I'm going to make two right away now....

Ike at 4/28/2010

Apr 23, 2010
I'm tried. Full stop.
Insomnia had been taking over my life for the past few weeks but now sleep are coming over at the wrong hours...


I have to finish up all the test prints, framing and other shits before I am able to sleep peacefully....

Speaking of sleeping on longer hours, guess I'll be delaying my trip back home since dad won't approve my sleeping habits....

Okay, I have decided.. I'm staying back to have my sleeping sessions.

The end.


Muet is in 2 hours... DAMN!

Ike at 4/23/2010

Apr 22, 2010
Truth hurts? Yeah.. brace yourself.
It's been a while since I had blogged or read someone else's blog.

Well, I did caught up here and there and one blog caught my eyes.

So now, I guess I should come clean what's being going on in my mind. What's my view in our relationship and all.

I'm sorry things didn't work out and dumping you right after V-day's weekend.
It might sound like I'm using you and things like that but honestly I do give a damn about you.

I cared until my 3 months are up.

3 month, is all that I need to judge if I am able to tolerate with the relationship. If I am able to tolerate with my future. If everything is worth the wait.

My intuition said otherwise after our V-weekend. I don't know if it's my own self or I am being insecure but I felt suffocated, I felt something was missing with us.

Something is not right.

And I don't like that feeling. That missing feeling when we are together. It felt like an act. Empty , fake. An act all together.

So I had to say my goodbyes before we hurt ourselves. Before things gets worse.

So i hope things are cleared up by now. And no. I'm not saying this is your fault.

My only advise:

Shit happens. Life won't have a meaning without having them in it.
but it doesn't mean we should be bitter towards others.


updates, I just realized my exam is tomorrow... DAMN!!!!!

but luckily it's muet...

Ike at 4/22/2010

Apr 15, 2010
Baby, I love you no matter what. :3
hey guys,

hahaha yeah, you'd probably think 'this post is might gonna be about her boyfriend.. LOL'

Nah, I'm not... I don't even have one yet XD
maybe, but soon... yeah very very sooooon....

What I am going to write about precious people that i really really love with all my heart. (and yeah I'm going to stop describing or it'll get too corny now.. hahahaha)

1st: My Cosplay Family (small version)

they are my most precious people in my life. I might had only them not more than a year (yet) but it's like i have known them almost forever, especially mumsy dearest. Our first time meeting, we clicked instantly and chatted as if we were long lost friends. And since then I had been watching robot chicken. XD

Sky and kids <3. They are awesome people who had help me out through out my cosplay days and at the same time torture me into doing random characters too... LOL. They are the awesome duos that kept everyone entertained with their moe-ness and sometimes GAR things they would do. Seriously, they are the core of every fun things. Without them, we can't have LOLWHUTZOMGBBQSAUCE cracky jokes around the family XDDDDDDDDDDD. I love them both to bits.

Sparda, Yuo, Xajin, Liq (did i miss anyone out?) They are the most loving, creative and interesting people i met. XD These people could kick your assess with their mind blowing ideas. I can't explain with words on how amazing they are and I love them to bits no matter what.

and Dante. I had to admit. This guy may look cool but he can flame your asses with his PWNage sarcasm.. unless that person is a complete idiot.XD I still remembered the day when I first saw him at Youth 09 and when i asked for his photo, he had this sweet smile and i swore Dante (I mean Dante the game chara LOL) looked so cute and adorable. XDDDD

2nd: My close friend(s).

Only a handful of them. They are precious, they are dear to me. They are my everything.

One of them lived too far away but I love him to every single bits of he himself. We'd share almost anything. About our lives, about our views and about small things we won't notice until we talked about it. I see him as my dearest brother and so did he. (Yeah, he sees me as his younger brother. LOL i know I'm a girl but i don't care! It's unconditional love LOL!) Plainly naive, funny, sweet and loving. His personality just screams- CUTEEEEE! and his face is baby face too.. hahah every girl wants him as their husband! LOL

3rd: My Cosplay friends

They are awesome people with colourful personalities. Nothing is ever dull with them whenever we got together in an event or outside an event. Nothing is ever dull. The random cheers, they cheerful laughters, the naughty teasing and the funny dramas we all went through. They are one crazy ass bunch.

4th: (insert random thing here)

XD nah kidding.

LOLOLOL it may not be alot on what i've just say here but I really do love them so much. I miss their presence and their warmth. >w < I shall demand everyone of you bear hugs >D

and kisses too! ahahahahhaha

P/s: random post is random. this is what you get staying up all night while you're at McD nomming all sugar-ish stuff while doing other random shit. hahahahaha. yes, i am on sugar rush. =w = deal with eeeeettt!!!!! 8DDDD

Ike at 4/15/2010

Apr 5, 2010
My Life sucks
My diploma show is in two weeks time.

I'm still hanging on a thread.

I wish this will be over A.S.A.P

and graduate whatever I have left now.

Ike at 4/05/2010

Apr 3, 2010
The Truth Hurts
As long as I have live, I had not come across a single soul that had lead a life full of misery masked behind all the shine and gold.

Who knew that the myths were right?

One could have all the fame and riches in the world but he / she had to sacrifice their utmost important thing they have through out their lives, those small important things that most people tend to ignore, their own lives.

Their lives are being determined by the majority's voice of their 'followers' on whom they should go out with and what they should do. No sorrows are to be leaked out nor any tears allowed to be shed within the vicinity of a public's eyes. Only fake smiles, insincere laughters and momentary joy are allowed to be shared.

Not a single soul are allowed to know the troubles they have or the dirty plans made by their 'higher ups'. They are not allowed to be said a word, nor are they allowed to go against anything the secret law they have made within their own. They were forced into slavery and wreck their souls up to the brim.

Some might go as far as committing suicide, by stress from their higher ups, and by their own followers.

Some will decide to back away and cut ties, returning to their own world, but none the less, get a harsher treatment.

Some will turn insane and do the unexpected, making more drama to the public.

So here i stand as the 'followers' hoping that those other 'followers' out there to understand these people's lives. They are not dolls and they are not like the SimS which we could play god and decide their lives. Give them spaces and give them time.

They have a soul and they have a heart for them to make choices. They are here to make us smile to brighten up our lives. Sacrificing day and night, forcing out ideas on how to keep the smile going. We are part of them and they are a part of us. Let's not be ignorant and open up your eyes what misery we have cause their lives. They are happy for us, why can't we be happy in what decisions and the choices they made?
They are after all a human.

Let's start giving back and stop receiving. It's time for them to be happy with a real smile!

Ike at 4/03/2010


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I don't give out my real name for some reasons..

You can call me Ay, Ikki, Ike or Jay...

A 1989 baby..

Loves the colour Red and Black

I love anything that is interesting to me.
My interest revolves mainly on art, music, dance and cosplay.

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