May 24, 2010
How did it turned out this way?

Where had the word "us" gone to?

The stories we'd shared?
The laughters we had?
The hugs we gave?
The tears we shed?
The promising dreams we've talked about?

Was it all that easily forgotten for you till it had become a memory?
A memory that had been left in the deep shelves of your mind?

Were we nothing at all?

And as I asked myself, we've already shattered into pieces of dust.. leaving nothing but emptiness....

Ike at 5/24/2010

about dust
and as i speak, we've shattered into pieces of dust.. leaving nothing but emptiness.


even they easy to throw away and gone..
but dust is always around us , every where..
when we clean our self with dust , the dust never give up to make we are with dust again or dust never missing exactly because they was here , around us , watching us , beside us when we don't know.

- psycho rose

she's younger than me, but her view is wider than mine. :3

Ike at 5/24/2010

May 13, 2010
A wall of memories.
I am finally back home! YAY!!!

It was exactly around 9 p.m when I touched down in front of my house 8DDD

I was supposed to feel happy and excited right???

but honestly, I felt a bit sad... I'm actually going to miss those whom I have met and knew through out this three years. The laughters that we shared, the hardship we had gone through, the weird adventures we had....

I am going to miss them very much.
It's not easy to have the same thing over again and the feeling will be very different too.... )))=

I had my last lunch at Mak Yong's and she felt a bit heart broken knowing that we won't be able to come back there for the future. She was close to tears when we were leaving... I felt sad too... She's a very cheerful woman despite her old age. She knows how to bring a smile with her funny ways and her crazy talks. Mak Yong, I am going to miss your funny ways and your cooking... ))))=

and then the 7-Eleven at Bandar Universiti. Damn... I am going to miss the times I spent there with different people. The funny things, the crazy shopping hours and the things we would debate upon before buying an item.

and my temporary pets, Megadeth and Blacky...

Megadeth is our kitten that we found at a mamak stall. It is a very sick kitten and we took it home. She is the loveliest thing we ever had last year but she couldn't last long. On the seventh day, she died at our backyard. a day before she tried to run away but when we called her home, she came back and slept at our feet when we're busy finishing our assignments at the living room. I miss you Megadeth.

and Blacky. He is our faithful guardian, guarding our front yard, keeping bad guys away. He would come over once or twice to our porch and sleep when it rained or when the sun is too hot. He is the most shy dog I have ever met. and humble too. He knows who is good and who is bad. Once, he waits for me at the front gate, knowing i would be coming home late to finish my finals. And he sits on the front gate, not moving for a bit till I'm safe behind doors. Thank you Blacky. I will miss you.... > A <

The journey back home made me feel all melancholic....

And... yeah... I am going to miss everything. Every good and bad. Its special. and forever special....

Ike at 5/13/2010

May 9, 2010
Mother's Day
So, here I am stuck in Perak and got nothing to do.

Mother's day is today but sadly I don't really celebrate it. .___. or should i say that I'm the only one that rarely wishes mother's day to my mum.

=___= no, don't start judging me as a bad daughter.

to start of with, I was never close with my own parents. So, I even rarely talk to them / spend any quality time except during dinner & whenever I'm out of my bedroom if I'm at home.

So, yeah. It's awkward.. and weird if I say it. .__.

The last mother's day card that i made was back in kindergarten.


probably around 16 years ago, and it's still in that file that's kept inside that rusted cabinet...


should i sneak one homemade card when i got home?



well see...

Ike at 5/09/2010

May 6, 2010
End of my 3 years of love, hate and torment.
finally, today marks the first day that I am free from the clutches of evil~~~ LOL

I am finally finished with my 3 agonizing years of college for my diploma.

It is full of love-hate relationship between me and the whole department but in the end we resolve things out... So.. yeahhhh

Things end well for some of us and i hope we'll meet somewhere in the nearest future. =)

Ike at 5/06/2010


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